fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.


Do you get some satisfaction from sharing your trauma with others? Like you get a kick out of people’s reactions?
Is this like an actual psych evaluation?
I’ll jerk off your reactions if you want me to say depraved shit for valuetainment