-I’m on a Discord server composed with people i know since a dozen years. Despite some heavy drama, this is the most perennial community i’ve ever frequented. We care heavily for eachother and they know some thing i never told to my own mother. We were first on a discussion forum then moved to discord when the site linked to the forum died.
-My sister’s friends. She is so close to them that they all became mine.
I have come to grips with the fact that I am not capable of maintaining relationships like this. I have no one close to me like this or even casually close. Honestly though, after so many years of failing, not at making friends but at keeping them, I have come to terms that it is not natural for me to have them.
I am very good at making friends but I lose interest after some time and it feels like a burden to keep up the friendship. I am perfectly fine without them though so I can’t see why I should keep trying.
Maybe it’s a condition… Maybe I’m born with it 🤷