Live in the past, is mine. I will listen to things over and over because some songs or even podcast episodes, rewind me back to times where I felt comfortable in. I do sometimes poke my head out to see where things are currently in the present, but nothing around really makes me gravitate to anything current-day. But, then I just go back to my hole in living in the past.
People used to tell old people to get over it about them remembering things as they were all of the time. I’m understanding why they do that. Sometimes the present really truly sucks.
I started playing a game with myself during my freshman year of college: how many species can I identify? At first I could only easily distinguish between birds and mammals. Then I was like oh well maybe I should bay closer attention to plants, then I realized how do I tell the difference between trees? Ok leaves are easy enough things to spot but why are some plants woody and some are… Wait how do I describe that? (Word I was looking for was herbaceous).
I took a lot of shrooms during that time, realized Im not built for an office environment and decided to study horticulture and botany even though it wasn’t offered at my university. I decided that I’d become a horticulturist and everyone around me probably thought I was smoking too much weed.
They were probably right, but I stuck to the plan regardless.
Ha. The two words I distinctly remembered learning while going on this journey are “forb” and “sedge”. The former being “I need nonwoody nongrass plants for my garden, what is the word for those plants?.” And the latter “how is this weed not considered a grass? It’s a sedge? What is that?”