Sheesh, your self talk sounds just like mine, sorry for that and the upbringing that molded it : (. Check out ThePlantSlant on tiktok/YT, Liam has a lot of shorts about improving your relationship with food and that might be a good avenue to explore. If you are in the US and your family is in a position to be able to arrange liposuction treatment, the involvement & conversations with medical professionals would probably help more than anything. I suspect that would be less true outside the US and western Europe though.

I have wondered the same thing, the front of my house (where the living room and gaming PC are) gets a lot of sun so it is always a few degrees warmer than the back bedroom. My wife would rather melt than put a hole in the ceiling so I have not been allowed to try to fix it lol.