World is an absolute shit show with no signs of improving, personal life just keeps turning upside down, everything makes me terminally tired. I am trying to remain positive and be a positive force for others. I do stuff to make me feel better, like art, take walks, talk to a therapist, grow plants, community work - and I do manage to squeeze a tiny happiness out of my activities but it doesn’t seem to be worth the effort. I try to connect with people and quite a few people actually seem to like me but socializing makes me feel exhausted. I catch myself thinking “Let the fucking war arrive and burn it all down” and that’s terrifying stuff to carry in one’s own head. I just feel I’m part of the overpopulation and that there’s no point of existing.
I have a kid and don’t want them to be sad because their crazy parent offed themselves and that’s all that keeps me going.
Those of you feeling like this: what keeps you going?
What keeps me going is dogs because I love canids they are so adorable. But also because I love computers and shi and doing cool hacky shit on it. Idgaf about the state of the world. Sure some random western giant decided to bomb huge regional power in hot oil land but honestly that just motivates me to make the most out of whatever the hell I have. It’s like that phenomenon where the world feels like it’s gonna end so you might as well go crazy and do a bunch of shit you always wanted done. Another thing that keeps me going is cute anime huzz 😩😩😩
That’s some real shit bruh keep it pushing also the fact that you even have a kid in the first place is a big W