I don’t mean like how happy you are today. I mean overall, are you satisfied with everything you are up until this point? For me, for an example, I have a decent job that keeps my head just above water. I have a loving family that I see every couple months or weeks. I have the freedom to do what I want, when I want. But, overall, I’m sort of lonely and exhausted from constantly working. So, on a scale of 1 to 10, I’m about a 6.
I lead a very nice, comfortable life. I wouldn’t change hardly anything. But I suffer from depression, always have and yes, I do therapy and meds. I’m waiting for this to be over.
Depressed, 3/10.
Idk how to be independent so I’m stuck with my family of origin.
Anxious all the time, hearing Cantonese being spoken triggers me.
One thing I do appreciate is somehow the universe let me out of China, so now at least I can watch Youtube videos in depression, can’t imagine having to live behind the firewall. I personally didn’t even have internet when I was in China.
Could be worse so… eh…
FUCK TRUMP FUCK XI FUCK PUTIN
DOWN WITH THE CCP
DEATH TO XI JINPING
Lol that feels so good, this would’ve been illegal to say in China xD
My mom used to be 70% love 30% abuse, now its like 20% love 80% abuse. My older brother acts so threatening.
Seriously, if I had an older sister instead, maybe it would be more peaceful. I feel like males are just so aggressive, and I’m saying this as a dude…
well I mean my mom is also aggressive so… eh… idk honestly.
2/10 now that I have talk about it and it make me more depressed and I just feel like my soul melted into a puddle of depression again.
my life is pretty great. I love it.
What i don’t love, however, is inviting people into my life only for them to tell me how crappy it is because it’s not the life they want. I don’t really socialize anymore because I am so sick of people telling me how wrong my life is because I don’t enjoy what they enjoy or want what they want. fore example, i drive a 10 year old hatchback, and almost everyone new I meet, when they learn this, lectures me no how I should drive a ‘better’ car, and it should be a BMW SUV or something like that, and all it is them projecting their desires onto me. and if i dare say something like ‘I’m good with what I have’ I get a lecture about how I must be mentally ill or stupid. How could I possible be happy with my ‘crap’ car? my job, my home, my dog, etc.
I used to have lots of friends, but the past 5-10 years it’s dwindled to like 3 people. Because I shut people like this out of my life once they start talking to me like this. And it’s prevented me from making any new friends. I am so SICK of inviting people over to my place only to get this full on lecture about how ‘offended’ they are I don’t live in a million dollar luxury apartment, because my place is ‘shithole’ if it doesn’t have $5000 luxury appliances or something stupid like that.
I keep trying to meet new people, keep trying to date, etc, but this is the massive roadblock I keep running into. I am so sick of it and it makes me unhappy, so I basically don’t socialize much anymore. Because I like being happy and not interacting with twats who think I need a therapist if my salary isn’t 500K.
Honestly? The last few years have been like a slow motion Trainwreck. My wife developed serious chronic health issues a few years ago and I’ve been unemployed for almost a year and a half. We’ve gone from being in a very good financial position to being virtually bankrupt. It has not been a good time.
If I had been asked this fifteen years ago, I’d have said 0/10. I was a time bomb. I quite literally wanted to die and take everyone with me. I was in a marriage with a spouse who was emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive. We had two kids I couldn’t summon the ability to be a good father to because my mental health was in the toilet. I had the career I thought I had always wanted but I dreaded going to work because I was surrounded by hostility by absolutely everyone I served. And I was not earning enough to make any of this bearable. I slogged through my waking hours filled with a rage and hate that was getting harder and harder to keep bottled up.
Eventually I did implode, and it was extremely ugly, and I ended up involuntarily institutionalized for a couple years. Spouse made it all about her and managed to convince everyone in her circle that she was the hero and I was the villain and turned everyone against me, including my kids.
I was in pretty intense therapy for a few years, and during that time I learned a lot not only about myself, but about the people in my life, and what they actually were. I put that knowledge to work once I was in a position to put my life back together.
Today I have a new home, new job, and new friends and family connections that include almost no one from my past. The hardest part is living with the regret of the damage I did to people who didn’t deserve it at the time. But today I have a new son, and while I wish I could have made my relationship with his mom work, at least we still get along and coparent well. New job is demanding of my time but I’m good at it, am respected by my coworkers, and enjoy the work. I give it a solid 7/10 and improving slowly. But man I low-crawled though Hell to get here.
I’d like a refund.
I’d say 8/10.
No real issues honestly, just chilling after graduating high school and soon getting into uni. Been eating a lot better too, since I’ve got a ton of time to experiment with easy and dirt cheap breakfasts mainly which are barely processed. Ive also been able to experiment with my massive fixation on technology, although I don’t have many more computers I can experiment with unless I quietly snatch a surface pro 4 from the storage room or smth.
What bugs me however, is how family members don’t really care when dozens of noises are occurring at once, like my dad with the tv on while also watching tiktoks, and that it seems nobody else but I get stressed and overstimulated from it. Due to this (and dozens of other things), I’ve suspected I’m autistic for like a year now, and I’ve been going good with cataloguing the reasons and doing official tests on it.
Anxiety, autism, depression, overweight, friends only exist online, too socially anxious to make friends locally, work an ok job that maybe could afford a studio apartment, gf lives on the other side of the country, never moved out of my parents house, most likely have added a small bit of separation anxiety to the mix…
Probably like a 4/10
My life’s pretty much 9-10/10, and the things I’m unhappy about are both small all things considered and also mostly in my hands (and any changes haven’t been made because I’m lazy and unfocused but still a future possibility). Most of the things I’m grateful for I’ve gotten completely for free, not thanks to any personal effort, like my upper middle class upbringing, my slightly cuckoo but very loving mom, my curious disposition, my depth and speed of thought, my empathy and prosociality (despite being such a proud and, at times, reclusive person), meeting my now-wife in the unlikeliest of places, renewing my faith in God… I’ve been given a lot, it’s hard to be ungrateful (but I still manage sometimes, lol). 🙏👍
0/10 - Cancer surgery in 11 days.
Hopefully it all goes well! How would you rate it if it’s a successful procedure and you recover completely ?
Hard to say, recovery is going to be a bitch because, get this… 12 days after my diagnosis, 1 day before the CT Scan and 2 days before meeting the surgeon, my wife felt a numbness and tingling in her legs, tried to stand up and fell to the floor.
An infection she had been fighting in her foot moved to her spine and tried to paralyze her(!) She had emergency surgery on her spine that night, a lower leg amputation a few days later, and has now been in the hospital… (checks math) 14 days.
So there’s a real possibility we’ll both be hospitalized at the same time or, best case, in surgical recovery at the same time. She can’t come home until she completes rehab for the nerve damage and amputation.
I’ll finish a game that I’ve lost to be sportsmanlike, and that’s where I’m at in general
Not at all
If reincarnation real , want choice in the matter , be reborn as “living” doll thing can still like move around and shit but experiences neither (life|death)
Just want to exist effortlessly
